Ah, about the matter of paying now vs. keeping the money for stuff you can buy now, I don't know where you preorder your games but at the gaming shops in here, I don't pay in advance. I pay when the game is in my hand.
If I struggled to the end of my determination, to the end of my way of life with my followers, if the result is ruin, then this ruin is inevitable. Grieve. Shed tears. But you cannot regret.