ok, I normally don't do this because it sounds like just making excuses, but there have been several misunderstanding lately, both from me and from some members of the staff so I feel likie clarifying some things, when I feel like going tl;dr i will just put the extra stuff between the spoilers.
I was checking the warnings posts and noticed that http://mugenguild.com/forumx/index.php?topic=112184.msg1534077#msg1534077 thought I was going to quit mugen/the forums which is wrong ( and Iced reinforced that , which again is wrong, I think it's not on purpose but is part of the misunderstandings too), I am going to keep visiting and I am going to keep working on my game, just yesterday I spent a few hours working on my game actually.
Lately, I have been on a short fuse the reasons are there, if you don't care why or don't want to break the flow just skip the spoiler.
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While I normally have to put up with regular adult problems I usually deal well with them without being too affected (service people doing bad their job, relatives askign for money just because I make mroe than them, etc...) but lately there have been two things that have put me on the edge stress wise.
1. as some of you know i take care of my parents as my sister moved to another country, my father is 80, very overweight has an injured leg and has diabetes which is something I have learned to cope with in the past year as he can't even walk outside his home anymore so I have to buy his groceries and medicine. he got some eruptions on his back so I have been taking him to the doctor to check on his progress as well as apying the nurse that takes care of him, plus he is kind of a sissy so he gets on my nerves. My mother is 70 and while she is normally fit for her age she's got a case of bronchitis for over a week now and I have also been taking care of her.
2. the other matter is work related, I was promised a raise but I have not gotten it, it has been a few months since I was supossed to get it so i was already rpetty angry and planning to get another job as per mid january but then late january came and stuff becamse worse as I was told that the reason I did not get the raise is because the business is doing bad (that managed to calm me down as Ic an't really be that angry if that's the reason they did not give me the raise), now management has cut a few people and even vut the wages of some workers, it's a bit more stressful for me because the company I worked at 3 years ago went thru something similar and it actually went bankrupt; I hope this one does not go down, as the owners of this are actually hardworkers unlike my previous company.
so, i decided to take a break from posting, hence the change to "vacations" in my nickname (no, it was not gone or quit) and the reason why I decided to stop posting/diminish it for a bi, since using that nick name I only posted twice, one was in vans' prewip topic and the other was in the random topic.
In the vans topic I added the "I might sound like an asshole part" because the post was not so much as to give vans a new wip but to talk about a wip vans, me and another creator share so we could decide who was gonna finish/make it and i continued that post privately via messenger.
In the random topic it was a psot about driving there I just posted on how corruption is what runs on my city (if not country), and here is where the misunderstanding comes. valodim posted something about flags mods, he was talking about country flags as I learned later, but as I, again have been on a shortfuse and he posted right after me I understood it as a "flag users posts as negative" mod since those are used in a few other forums I frequent, so i tought valodim joined the "hate E" bandwagon hence why I started deleting my posts, later I learned that valodim was talking about something different so I think I will try asking about restoring the postts, if not possible I can always repost, sicne i had already saved the posts that were of interest to me in that subforum anyway.
Reading the previous discussion in this topic, yeah, lately I have not been enjoying the forums as much as I used to before, and for some reason poking the ocasional user has always been mildly amusing and I admit i have been doing so too often lately ( which might explain why some peopel reacted like they did to the diepod incident and made it a bigger deal than me and diepod did) and as walt said I plan to cut down on/ avoid poking other users and try to enjoy the forums like I used to do before, probably posting a bit more on the development parts of the forum and use a similar posting style to the one I use in as.
some extra info about the incidents on me mentioned (probably only useful to zilla, the people involved and some mods)
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about the diepod incident, I simply wanted to joke a bit around with him like all the other guys were doing before I got a bit annoyed because he told me to stop even though he seemed to eb joking nice with the other guys before, hence why I took it personal as if he did not want to joke around with me and hence why I called him rude and told him I was not gonna talk to him if he was really against me. then jesuszilla tried to get in between which just made things worse because he used a vocabulary befitting of a drunked byakko and I was already pretty angry so taht's why I told him to fuck off.
I decided to block Iced and zilla of messenger until I (and them) calmed down as I tought that talking about that stuff while being angry would be counter productive.
about the maverik incident, I remember two posts the firwst one was in all that's left, iirc and maverik specifically asked to be insulted, that's the post in which I called him fat, retard, said his work was shit and that he fapped to anime porn (but then again he specifically asked to get insulted), the later came the other topic in which he insulted red navi for not liking his stuff, which was in another guy's topic and rednavi was not the person who brought maverik's stuff in the topic, it was other guy. after that I don't remember posting to maverik ( and actually agree with a lot of the points he tried to make in most of the discussions he got in, but the stance he takes on things does not really make me feel like supporting him).
about the nigger and racist stuff, I have not posted those for months (iirc) and even the nigger stuff was playfully and I stopped doing so when I noticed people started getting genuinely offended by it, which still means I pissed off some people because I did not notice right away that they got offended since i ahve been doing it for a while.
about the loli stuff, well this one confuses me a bit for I don't remember doing loli jokes and even less of the type that should piss off anybody; and I bet most people have forgotten but the whole "me liking loli" deal was/is not even real it's actually an inner joke of sort that got started years ago, when ngbc was jut released at the arcades and I complained about how the intro was filled with lolis and it made me mad that they did not give the women in the game more coverage.
tl;dr version of the whole post
I am not quitting mugen or the forums, I just took a one week break to think on how I can go back to enjoy posting without pissing off other people, I am not making excuses as I acted like an asshole to some guys and I will try to avoid that in the future.
