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Re: [Theme Thread] CVS Sprite thread

 March 14, 2020, 02:25:23 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] CVS Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:51:37 pm
 Board: Graphics

    

Re: Goodbye.

 March 06, 2020, 08:58:23 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in Goodbye. (Started by GeorgeMP March 05, 2020, 09:31:55 pm
 Board: All That's Left

I've been struggling with depression for the past few years now. Additionally, as a kid, I was bullied, and that hit me hard, as I now tend to avoid social interactions, hence why I'm so bad at them. Because of that, I choose to spend most of my waking moments alone in my room. This whole time, I was just trying to find true happiness, relearn social interaction, and have an escape from the sorry excuse of a life that I live. But it's backfiring so horribly that I now just want to kill myself. Here's the thing, I told my parents all about this, and they didn't believe a word I said.

I know how that feels. High school was a period of time that I spent getting bullied by people, pretty much physical, almost everyday, from being pushed, ganged up on by other people, or my most hated one, a fresh cut to the back of your neck so hard, you crumple to the floor because it hurts so bad. I spent most of those years getting into fist fights in a futile attempt to dissuade people from using physical bullying against me. People would make me out to be the problematic kid, and called me things like "animal", "mongoloid", and "nigger" (yes, I had people call me that before, pale-skinned Arabs aren't very nice). And even still, I'd probably manage to get a few fists on their faces, only to have a gang of those dudes put me down quick.

Professors weren't very helpful either, as they too also viewed me as a problematic person who just started fights without reason, and even if I did tell them what other people were doing to, they really didn't do anything (Lets just say Syria isn't very progressive on the topic of bullying and physical harassment in school), and it just led to more anger, disappointment, and humiliation. Parents weren't helpful as they were going through their own struggles, from finding stable employment, to taking care of my paternal grandmother (who passed away after a hit-and-run, then stroke while at the hospital, all very quickly; never found the hit-and-run guy unfortunately). My father would get unreasonably angry with me every time I fought with people, and I thought he viewed me in the same way as my teachers did.

Those years in high school in Syria destroyed me really (or as one of my long-time elementary school friends stated "your childhood was slain man, damn"), it stunted my ability to interact with people socially. I didn't have much friends in high school, and I didn't even talk with my parents, relatives, or siblings much. Never got out of the house much either, and I just shut people off entirely. It didn't help much either when I signed up here in 2014, after moving from Syria to Canada after the death of my grandmother. Awkward social interactions, lot of fails, saying things to people that honestly tried to help me that looking back at it, I regret a lot.

At one point, after coming back here (2015 I think), I really did contemplate offing myself, because I got to a point where I'm thinking "My whole existence is pointless, what am I still doing here". I didn't go through with the idea because I couldn't bring myself to do it, but I look back to this particular point, and I'm always thankful that I didn't attempt anything reckless. 5 years later, it's 2020, my social life has gotten better, managed to let go of most of the pain I held inside, and I'm learning new things, and hoping to help other people later on, maybe.

I even managed to reconcile with my father on the whole topic of my high school years and get a straight answer from him (turns out he was deathly afraid I might hurt the kid of a well-connected person. Usually, in the Middle East, if you get in trouble with people that are well-connected to government people, you're pretty much fucked, and I went to a private high school, so the chances of that were pretty big). I'm on a better path in life that honestly felt alien and distant to me when I was 17/18. I'm 24 now.

There's this saying in Islam where ease will follow after moments of strife/difficulty, be it personal, financial, etc. And I think that's honestly what happened to me. But you won't reach that point if you go ahead and off yourself. Nothing ever stays the same.

So please, reconsider what you're doing. If you give it time and try, you'll walk out of the fire armed with wisdom. You have a whole lot ahead of you, so don't squander it. For your sake.

    

Re: [Theme Thread] Street Fighter Alpha/CPS2 Sprite thread

 March 05, 2020, 04:22:04 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] Street Fighter Alpha/CPS2 Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:49:06 pm
 Board: Graphics

    

Re: Stage Discussion

 February 02, 2020, 06:16:22 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in Stage Discussion (Started by Neocide October 24, 2012, 11:06:52 pm
 Board: Dragon Ball Allstars


-Forest, snowfall variant-


The Forest stage and all variants will be coded by our very own Vegaz Pareli, So while you're waiting for that, here's an early WIP sneak-peek at the next stage:

Spoiler, click to toggle visibilty
    

Re: Do you want me to reveal my personal information?

 January 20, 2020, 10:18:08 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in Do you want me to reveal my personal information? (Started by GeorgeMP January 20, 2020, 08:16:46 pm
 Board: All That's Left

Just be sure to add all the bits about your credit card information your favorite hobbies so I can know you better.  ;) :goi:
    

Re: Blazblue Calamity Trigger Lifebars Uddate (11/01/20)

 January 11, 2020, 10:23:42 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in Blazblue Calamity Trigger Lifebars Uddate (11/01/20) (Started by GaziraAgain May 25, 2018, 07:19:17 pm
 Board: Your Releases, 1.0+

Yep, the video is watchable on my end.
    

Re: [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread

 December 24, 2019, 06:35:43 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:50:12 pm
 Board: Graphics

    

Re: Custom CVS styled Sagat sprites

 December 24, 2019, 01:05:44 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in Custom CVS styled Sagat sprites (Started by 100_Sad_Pandas December 23, 2019, 10:57:23 pm
 Board: Development Resources

Street Fighter Alpha sprites, so no, they aren't Capcom vs SNK styled sprites.
    

Re: REVival 2 WIP Thread (Sonic cause I dont feel super great)

 December 22, 2019, 02:40:33 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in REVival 2 WIP Thread (Started by TheFclass97 October 22, 2019, 12:09:45 am
 Board: Projects

    

Re: [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread

 December 21, 2019, 01:26:46 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:50:12 pm
 Board: Graphics

    

Re: REVival 2 WIP Thread (Sonic cause I dont feel super great)

 December 20, 2019, 12:17:26 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in REVival 2 WIP Thread (Started by TheFclass97 October 22, 2019, 12:09:45 am
 Board: Projects

I'm perfectly fine with the original digitized sprites, honestly.
    

Re: TEST RUN - Spritesheet Expansion Thread Addendum - Request thread

 December 18, 2019, 02:46:01 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in TEST RUN - Spritesheet Expansion Thread Addendum - Request thread (Started by Graphicus August 09, 2013, 11:41:11 am
 Board: Sprite Projects

    

Re: Spritesheet Expansion Thread

 December 11, 2019, 02:38:28 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in Spritesheet Expansion Thread (Started by Graphicus September 18, 2011, 07:17:56 am
 Board: Sprite Projects

I forgot to post these here. SF3 Urien animations by me:

Anger Snap Fist


Dominant Crush


SFV Taunt

    

Re: TEST RUN - Spritesheet Expansion Thread Addendum - Request thread

 December 05, 2019, 11:06:39 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in TEST RUN - Spritesheet Expansion Thread Addendum - Request thread (Started by Graphicus August 09, 2013, 11:41:11 am
 Board: Sprite Projects

    

Re: [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread

 December 01, 2019, 11:47:24 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:50:12 pm
 Board: Graphics

Appreciate it, mate.
    

Re: [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread

 December 01, 2019, 03:03:17 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:50:12 pm
 Board: Graphics

I made this sprite to test out CLIP STUDIO PAINT as a spriting program, it's a remake of an old request (Edward Bilstein from Star Gladiator):



Showing it here before I try animating an idle in CLIP STUDIO PAINT. I'd say it's a decent improvement over the last 4 years.

(the greenish color on the old one was originally completely transparent before I stupidly saved it over a dark green background).
    

Re: [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread

 November 17, 2019, 01:43:40 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:50:12 pm
 Board: Graphics

You right. Thanks for pointing it out to me.
    

Re: [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread

 November 16, 2019, 11:39:58 pm View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] Street Fighter 3/CPS3 Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:50:12 pm
 Board: Graphics

Spoiler: last dump of JoJo sprites (click to see content)

and here's this, trying to shake the rust off:

    

Re: How can I get a job at Elecbyte?

 November 12, 2019, 12:45:28 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in How can I get a job at Elecbyte? (Started by GeorgeMP November 11, 2019, 08:43:49 pm
 Board: M.U.G.E.N Discussion

There are not a lot of openings for actual programmer jobs, but Elecbyte is always looking for a janitor. :3
    

Re: [Theme Thread] Street Fighter Alpha/CPS2 Sprite thread

 November 05, 2019, 03:37:56 am View in topic context
 Posted by hatter  in [Theme Thread] Street Fighter Alpha/CPS2 Sprite thread (Started by Formerly Hoshi April 21, 2010, 09:49:06 pm
 Board: Graphics



Made entirely from scratch. Unfortunately, I couldn't get it to look quite right in 15 colors, so I opted to go above.