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Re: Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit

 January 30, 2023, 10:10:16 PM View in topic context
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 Board: All That's Left


I feel disgusting.

Unfortunately you've proven your words are worthless. So let's put it all on the table today and hope you really look this time.

Do you understand now why I am unwilling to let you back into the discord? Can you at least begin to understand? If we needed to here we could limit the amount you could post in a day, or keep you honest with what you post (like what happened earlier when you saw you got put in the shit thread and tried to remove the evidence). That's quite easy.

But I have no intention of letting you back in a place where you have free reign to berate people endlessly because for some reason you decided everyone you met today was an asshole. That is not happening at any point until I can be sure that you won't.

I'm not saying this as your enemy because I do not know you and have no personal attachment to you and I will not claim to say it as your friend because I do not know you and have no personal attachment to you: performative contrition or contribution does not earn you any points. If you truly want to be here then you need to realize that our day does not revolve around whatever offense has occurred to you today. So let's go back to the three things I told you less than two weeks ago.

Be good. Realize that every disagreement is not a religious fatwa and that your opposition is not a simpleton that simply cannot grasp that you are correct. (This is the lesson Macaulyn was trying to impart to you. He would know.)

Stay good. Nobody cares about your old grudges, they care about how you're acting right now. Treating it like they should is just gonna make it worse on yourself in the long term. Take some time and breathe. (This is the lesson Gennos was trying to impart to you. He would know.)

Don't get banned from here. This last one is becoming increasingly important. I would know.

I feel disgusting.

As you should.

And no, that's not me saying "good, feel bad" or anything, that's my way of saying it's the right thing to feel about all of this. Feeling disgusted about disgusting behavior, I mean. Recognizing the problem is the first step towards fixing yourself.

Now, I'm not MFFA staff, I'm not in the MFFA discord, I have very little experience with you, so I won't try to speak in depth on matters I don't know in full or understand completely. But from the sounds of things, yeah, this ain't the first time you've been through this wringer and I think everyone involved would love for there to be a last time.

Either through you changing, or you being perma-banned because you won't change.

Seriously, take ALL OF THIS as a sign that, yeah, you fucked up hard and need to change yourself and your behavior. That's not how you treat people in any way and those aren't battles worth having.

I used to be like that and it cost me a lot of very close friends and I've burned too many bridges to count. That shit eats you, especially when the bridges you burn are way more personal than that of a MUGEN community.

Don't let this kind of behavior continue to fester and expand beyond something as niche and small as MUGEN. Seriously, let this be a wake up to you.

Take a break, reflect, get help, fucking change. I'm sure plenty of people are tired of telling you to do so, or telling you that this isn't okay, but I think it would be a serious breath of fresh air for those who've had to put up with you if you legitimately did face the consequences of your actions and worked to better yourself, to actually be a part of this community.

Please consider it. Nothing wrong with trying to better yourself, you can only grow from there. Don't take any of this as a sign of being totally worthless and hopeless, take this as your final shot to be better before you get perma-banned from more than just MFFA.

...thanks

...I'll try after I get out of this emotional hole I'm in.

is that ok?
    

Re: Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit

 January 30, 2023, 09:26:38 PM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

They.
Do not.
Want.
Me.
There.
You're right. We don't want you there.
Your behavior is highly disruptive and toxic.
You repeatedly ignore warnings.
You disrespect authority despite them being respectful.

How many times were you told to quit the excessive swearing on the Discord? Quite frankly, I find it absurd that I had to start timing you out for it and when it ran out you STILL went back to excessive swearing.
How many times you got angry and lashed out at someone because they called you out? The fact that you even did this toward staff says a lot.

The last time you were allowed on the discord you were explicitly and clearly told that it was your last chance and that the next infraction would be a permaban. You didn't last a day.

You want to know what's unfair? The fact that we were generous enough to give you so many chances and leeway for so long despite your behavior that would have gotten anyone else thrown out much faster. We gave you multiple breaks. When the gloves came off that should have been a tip that we were not fucking around anymore. Instead, you choose to double down on your behavior and continue.

I'm glad you did this post. You just proved us right and affirmed that the decision to get rid of you was the correct one.

i feel a bit sad for you because you remind me of myself. the best advice i can give to you is to: go touch some grass, get out of your own head and remind yourself of how ridiculous it is to get so worked up over some obscure internet forum that does not even show up in the first page of a google search.
relax, ok? its not worth it.

Hey I just wanna say that I appreciate that you and me have grown up from being edgy manic users to being slightly less manic users as we have both been here for a decade and joined the forum proper at the same time, it's nice to see that you can pass on the same advice that has been said to the both of us.


That being said, I feel like people need to remember that a forum is not obligated to keep you around according to their policies and the forum itself is not your friend, individual users are and you should be aware as such if anything warrants being banned for.

thanks man! i was an asshole to u too many times, im really sorry for that.

Don't apologize, I probably deserved it. It's all good! No beef from my end bud.


I have nothing left to say. I just have nothing left to say. So, I'm just gonna say nothing else. What do you guys want me to say? Because at this point, I don't care anymore. I have nothing left to lose. Tell me what to do and I will do it. It does not matter to me anymore. But after you do that, I want all of this thread gone. At least delete my post, because it does not help me seeing how much of a worthless fuckwit I am. Please do it or I'll find a way to do it myself.

No, you brought your personal shit here, to a completely unrelated forum out of nowhere and screamed at everyone who replied that they should believe you and that you are completely innocent, which you are not, and you are still making demands.

You do not get the luxury of asking for the thread to be gone, it is going to stay up and be part of the shit thread because that is what it is for.

You actively INSULT the people in this thread in the most toxic and verbally abusive way you can because you cannot accept the fact that they do not want you there because YOU ARE THE PROBLEM and frankly they are right.

The fact you are on the spectrum does not matter because there are many other users here who are and know the responsibilities in being in a public forum and servers related to it. You do not get a pass.

You are manipulative, verbally abusive, ignorant and cannot get along with anyone in multiple forums and servers due to your own personal issues that we are not responsible for taking care of. You constantly aggressively attack anyone for the most minor of things because YOU feel slighted.

You haven't improved and it is clear you cannot. Please get help and stay out of public servers until you know how to actually own up to anything with genuine intentions instead of saying shit because you want to get what you want.


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I can attest to all of this. The MFFA staff tried their absolute hardest to help Karl. They were very lenient with him and his behavior for a good while. They would literally comfort and counsel him even after he had verbally abused them. They genuinely did all they could. But despite the numerous warnings and plethora of advice given to him, he never really learned or changed. I may have been the last person that Karl was in regular communication with, but even after everyone else had blocked him, he still treated me the exact same way he did them.

Please do not be mislead and view the MFFA staff in a negative light for this. Karl, whether intentionally or not, framed them as the total bad guys despite their above and beyond efforts to try and help him.

I feel disgusting.
    

Re: Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit

 January 30, 2023, 08:16:19 PM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

Okay.
    

Re: Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit

 January 30, 2023, 07:45:44 PM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

I have nothing left to say. I just have nothing left to say. So, I'm just gonna say nothing else. What do you guys want me to say? Because at this point, I don't care anymore. I have nothing left to lose. Tell me what to do and I will do it. It does not matter to me anymore. But after you do that, I want all of this thread gone. At least delete my post, because it does not help me seeing how much of a worthless fuckwit I am. Please do it or I'll find a way to do it myself.
    

Re: Got banned from MFFA for petty reasons

 January 30, 2023, 05:49:38 PM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

Do you have any idea how insulting that thing you called "advice" was to me? I WISH I had as much of a life out there as everyone else. I really fucking do. Because then I could touch the grass, I could turn off the laptop, and I could finally live a single day where I don't think about killing myself.

You wanna explain my life to me? Go ahead. But I am not going to take such condescending bullshit from people like you. I only said what I said at first because I DIDN'T want it to escalate any further. I accepted my fate; I just thought my fate was unfair. I didn't wanna throw a pity party for the umpteenth goddamn time, because for once in my worthless life, I thought I could just say it is what it is and be fucking done with it.

I didn't disappear from the forums because I wanted to let people know I was done and I signed out for 2 whole weeks.
I worded the first post meticulously, so I didn't make it seem like I'm the main character of everyone else's story.
I would rather explain myself curtly and definitively, than selfishly and without guilt.

If anyone else would like to make my day even better, please oblige. I'm gonna love what comes after this comment.

Well fine. You're not happy with their decision, I get that. But you keep insinuating yourself that this is some conspiracy going on to keep Karl from having access to MFFA and it clearly is not.
They.
Do not.
Want.
Me.
There.
Yeah. They just don't want you on their site.

It's THEIR site. They maintain, monitor, own and pay for the site. Tough luck. Move on.

It's like getting fired on your job for the first time. Yeah it sucks. They don't give a good reason except that they're "letting you go" and you never get to step foot in the premise again, most likely.

I'm not saying this to ridicule you or make you feel bad. I'm just being realistic here. It's not worth getting worked up about something you have no control over.
Either buy a domain, make your own forum and be a better admin there or find another place to hangout. It's not that hard.

Kolossoni, you dense-

GOD, this is painful. I can't buy a domain and maintain my own whole forum with a snap of my fucking fingers. I said multiple damn times that there is nothing I can do about this, on top of THIS REPLY FROM ALMOST YESTERDAY:
It’s just petty and really unjust; to me, anyway… There’s too many people on forums who say they are done and commit to it who aren’t banned for this to be anything other than spite. It’s not conspiracy bullshit, I’m rationalizing what’s happening to me. Again, they aren’t unbanning me, there’s nothing I can do but bitch and moan to anyone unfortunate to listen. Not to throw anyone under the bus or anything, but the admins and mods all have nothing good to say about me. I know that for sure. I can’t say that about any of you guys(I hope), but if you ask around they’ll say I’ve dug my own hole and I deserve this.

Do I? I don’t know anymore. My depression is saying yes but my sense is saying you’ve done almost all you wanted, don’t beat yourself over past faults. And yeah, I did contribute a lot of useful stuff to the website. I just hope I’m appreciated for what I did good and not just remembered for my faults.

In the name of Jesus F. Christ our all-powerful lord and savior, READ AND THINK FOR MORE THAN TEN SECONDS!

I wasn't looking for war, I was looking for understanding. And I'm STILL not looking for war, I'm STILL looking for actual understanding. If I have to repeat myself again or go any deeper, I swear to god... My reply I just quoted should've told you, ALL of you, that I AM over it as far as the consequences. But me being painted in the worst possible light at any possible second is really getting on my motherfucking nerves. No, I'm not fucking saying everyone is out to get me, I'm just saying I'm you're not helping. Not at all. And if you think you are, then I wish I lived in your world.

To make myself as clear as humanly possible because people don't like reading; I was flabbergasted initially when I saw that I was banned from the forum. I wasn't furious, if anything I was sad. I came here hours after that revelation to vent out my circumstances and express that I thought the ban was unjust because I didn't break any actual forum rules. I didn't want to air everything out at first because I didn't want to turn this into another garbage fire of a thread. Do not keep telling me that I'm overreacting when your solution is just to not feel anything at all. That's an insult to me, and to think I like being told my life story over and over and over and over again is insulting to me.

You are not helping me, stop acting like you are.
    

Re: Got banned from MFFA for petty reasons

 January 30, 2023, 03:56:44 PM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

it's the reason(or lack thereof) that they banned me that bothers me. There isn't a damn thing I can do about it. It's not like I can go sign back in now.

and I do sympathize with you as smth similar has happened to me before (not to mention a myriad others on this forum), but to reiterate:
You said you're clearly done with the site and MFFA just did what was deemed necessary.

case in point:
You were banned because the staff decided you threatened to leave and make a public spectacle of it multiple times and then just never did it but kept doing it. We all agreed it was enough you said you were done well we obliged you.

We didn't decide to remove you just because.

I wasn't even the one who got banned and I knew straight on. Just take it easy and PM the admins here, or even join their discord and ask for a repeal there. No need to cause drama on another forum that has nothing to do with this. Especially when the reason is so petty.

Kolossoni, I am going to be as charitable as possible for what I am about to say to you.

Laharl, Meldo Wiseau, Darkflare, and Dissidia would LOVE to list all the reasons I shouldn’t be on their forum. Let’s just forget what I kept insinuating, because apparently I have to spell this shit out:

They.
Do not.
Want.
Me.
There.

I implore you to take a goddamn hint and believe that there is (most definitely) nothing I can do to lift this ban. I would love to be wrong, but they want nothing to do with me, so I can only imagine that I shouldn’t touch their DMs. I didn’t wanna vent, but I’m gonna have to vent if you think the ban is just black and white. The gravity of my situation is that I can’t appeal this no matter how much I know this is bull. Again, if I’m wrong, someone else is gonna have to find out unless Laharl wants to have a conversation with me.

I was going to ignore this stupid post but fine since you are misleading ppl heavily here.

You were banned because the staff decided you threatened to leave and make a public spectacle of it multiple times and then just never did it but kept doing it. We all agreed it was enough you said you were done well we obliged you.

We didn't decide to remove you just because.

P.S. to anyone responding and not understanding the full story don't just take his word for it there was much more going on here than hes letting on.

Read the vibe of this reply and tell me we can work this out. Read it again and tell me this is negotiable.
    

Re: Got banned from MFFA for petty reasons

 January 30, 2023, 10:16:07 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

To prevent repeating myself, it's the reason(or lack thereof) that they banned me that bothers me. There isn't a damn thing I can do about it. It's not like I can go sign back in now. (y'know, 'cause I'm BANNED) If they didn't ban me, I wouldn't feel as jaded towards them as I do now. But I guess the bridges are more than burnt at this point. If y'all want me to trash the post, then I'll just trash the fuckin post. I was just surprised they hated me that much. Well... not that surprised but when you get banned without breaking any forum rules, you know you aren't welcome.
    

Re: Got banned from MFFA for petty reasons

 January 30, 2023, 07:19:59 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

It’s just petty and really unjust; to me, anyway… There’s too many people on forums who say they are done and commit to it who aren’t banned for this to be anything other than spite. It’s not conspiracy bullshit, I’m rationalizing what’s happening to me. Again, they aren’t unbanning me, there’s nothing I can do but bitch and moan to anyone unfortunate to listen. Not to throw anyone under the bus or anything, but the admins and mods all have nothing good to say about me. I know that for sure. I can’t say that about any of you guys(I hope), but if you ask around they’ll say I’ve dug my own hole and I deserve this.

Do I? I don’t know anymore. My depression is saying yes but my sense is saying you’ve done almost all you wanted, don’t beat yourself over past faults. And yeah, I did contribute a lot of useful stuff to the website. I just hope I’m appreciated for what I did good and not just remembered for my faults.
    

Re: Got banned from MFFA for petty reasons

 January 30, 2023, 06:19:02 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

If you're were done for good with the site, why would it matter that you get banned from it?

There was no good reason to ban me from a place I wasn’t causing trouble in. They hate me and my guts. At this point, without getting on a soapbox, I don’t blame them. But banning me makes me hate their guts as well.
    

Re: Got banned from MFFA for petty reasons

 January 30, 2023, 06:05:21 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left

That’s the thing though; it has been two weeks and I didn’t plan on coming back. Now they wanna do spiteful shit like this? It’s ridiculous is what I’m saying. I’ve never left for this long. They didn’t need to pull this crap.
    

Got banned from MFFA for petty reasons

 January 30, 2023, 04:04:01 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Confused on why I'm in the shit thread after I kept threatening to shit (Started by Do not even ask October 28, 2012, 10:37:23 AM
 Board: All That's Left



Don't you just love when you leave a forum because the entire administration/moderation hates you and wants nothing to do with you, and you just don't feel welcome at all anymore; and even though in 2 weeks of being signed out and doing nothing on the forum, as well as expressly stating how done I am with the site privately(and even then, sparsely), you get banned because fuck you. It doesn't matter that you are done with the site, it doesn't matter that you followed the rules, it doesn't matter that we have no grounds to justifiably ban you from our site.

You're banned because we hate your guts. We don't want you here, existing or not.

I love my life SO fucking much, guys.
(No, my IP isn't banned, but right now I wouldn't put it past them to do that too.)
Spoiler: Clarification of current situation (click to see content)
    

Re: Introduction Thread (INTRODUCE YOURSELF TO THE COMMUNITY HERE)

 January 28, 2023, 02:04:53 PM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Introduction Thread (INTRODUCE YOURSELF TO THE COMMUNITY HERE) (Started by shin. [OFWGKTA] July 07, 2007, 01:29:07 AM
 Board: Introductions and Guides

Welcome to MFG, MFFA veteran!
    

Re: Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill

 January 27, 2023, 02:46:37 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill (Started by Nexus Games January 25, 2023, 02:40:31 AM
 Board: Your Releases, 1.0+

who in the fuck is Nightmare Bee?
    

Re: Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill

 January 27, 2023, 12:19:56 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill (Started by Nexus Games January 25, 2023, 02:40:31 AM
 Board: Your Releases, 1.0+

This is going in circles, Jesus Christ. I can only be a saint for so long, somebody important do something!
    

Re: Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill

 January 26, 2023, 05:59:12 PM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill (Started by Nexus Games January 25, 2023, 02:40:31 AM
 Board: Your Releases, 1.0+

despite no one bringing up your distant past except you, until your update there’s nothing left to say. And when you do your update, we’ll have some more constructive feedback for you. Good luck with your progress, bro. We’re rooting for you.
    

Re: Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill

 January 26, 2023, 01:40:29 PM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill (Started by Nexus Games January 25, 2023, 02:40:31 AM
 Board: Your Releases, 1.0+

Nexus Gaming, if you actually retire... commit to it.

But if you come back, this whole speech is gonna bite you in the ass like nobody's business.

Nobody asked you to retire, nobody wanted you to retire, and we sure didn't advocate for you to stop making mugen content. But if you wanna stop, then stop. Permanently.

POTS can come back because he disappeared, people like you usually don't retire. Because you don't want to. You want people to be happy that you're "retiring". You want people to confirm your self-fulfilling prophecy of pity. Well, after the update, we(yes, we) will show you just how much we know you can do more. We'll show you how much of a benefit it is to have people like us around you to keep you in check. We don't want you to leave, man. We want you to learn.

Spoiler, click to toggle visibilty
    

Re: Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill

 January 26, 2023, 07:43:05 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Street Fighter I: The King of the Hill (Started by Nexus Games January 25, 2023, 02:40:31 AM
 Board: Your Releases, 1.0+

Please don't take the critiques the wrong way, guys. If Nexus is going to improve, he's gonna need REAL critique from REAL critics. Not yes men that don't know the first thing about a structured review. Do not fall for his pity party crap, this is the same dude that made the first Roy Bromwell for MUGEN and did a fine job on him. I honestly think he could do this, if he asked for some help for once.

No one, and I mean NO ONE, can make this many fullgames by themself and have them be competently made. Let's get straight here, we are not ganging up on him. That's ignorant and short-sighted. This has been going on for almost a decade if not just over one. He can make something that isn't held together by tape if he just tried.

Nexus, read this and understand it: We are trying to help you, not hurt you. To be honest, you should stick to making single POTS-style chars since that's your M.O. somewhat. If you wanna be Mr. One-man-show then that's fine. Just don't expect people here to blindly like your jank. On top of the fact that you've been here too long for you to still not understand basic FG theory. No shade-throwing to MMV, but you just aren't gonna get actual feedback there. I'm sorry, but if want some yeses; you're gonna have to accept some noes first. Let people help you with these fullgames. Ask for beta testers like everyone else. If you TRY and get some HELP, you WILL succeed. I promise we will help you get things done. Alright, buddy?
    

Re: King of Fighters All-Stars (Mobile)

 January 26, 2023, 12:20:53 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in King of Fighters All-Stars (Mobile) (Started by lui October 21, 2019, 11:25:49 AM
 Board: Gaming

Shun'ei wasn't in the game until now? Maybe Netmarble did us all a favor by delaying his otherwise sudden appearance as a main character.
    

Re: MUGEN Video thread

 January 25, 2023, 02:31:32 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in MUGEN Video thread (Started by c001357 September 27, 2008, 11:24:14 AM
 Board: M.U.G.E.N Discussion

AI Tournament for my fans and myself. This whole tournament was really exciting to watch the whole ride through! This is part 1 of the first 32 matches. Chars and their AI patches are in the description.
    

Re: Heads up, Infinite's Onedrive is gone

 January 22, 2023, 04:40:31 AM View in topic context
avatar  Posted by ...  in Heads up, Infinite's Onedrive is gone (Started by slackboy101 January 18, 2023, 10:43:10 PM
 Board: Requests

Mm-hm...

The entire site is dead, I don't recommend going there for... just about anything. Chances are, it's already here on MFG.